Ruthless epiphanies

I swallowed a pill that took me nowhere,

I followed a path that did not end.

I prayed to Gods that have no ears,

And pretended that mountains could bend.

With failure after failure,

Epiphanies tore me apart.

My sanity lingers with death and magic,

Leaving a carcass of what was once a heart.

I blame hope,

I blame you,

And I do not blame myself.

This new ruthless existence of mine

Is how I was meant to be from the start.

Kill your innocence, rethink your dreams,

This is no place for growth.

If you haven’t realized that life is a joke,

Then you’re intentionally wasting your youth.

Pills of happiness