Pending…

There are times when life just feels like it’s in a prolonging state of “pending”. It feels as though nothing is happening except the sun rising in the morning and setting in the evening. It feels as though the only evident sounds I hear are the ticking of the clock and the thud of my own heart beats.

Nothingness…

No actions of value, no mind-stimulating conversations, no heartfelt laughter…

Just nothingness…

It’s times like these that flood your mind with thoughts of all that you lost and leave you thirsty for something unknown.

It’s times like these that leave you bored and restless; feeling like there must be more to life than this.

It’s times like these that song lyrics and guitar tunes diffuse themselves into your being and bring forth new meanings and reflections on self that can only be described as dark.

Pending…

Like an impregnated thought lingers in the realms of your mind but can’t seem to find its path into words.

Like insomnia when it hovers way too close and leaves you sleepless, thoughtless and on the verge of insanity.

Like a distant river that can quench your thirst but can never be reached.

Pending, until your skin wrinkles and your hair locks turn white.

Or maybe just until tomorrow’s sun rises and a new day begins.

The problem is, you don’t know for sure…